PAINTING

A lot of people told me that I need to find a hobby and they've said it even more now during this quarantine. And as many times as I've asked, drinking, unfortunately does not count as a hobby!

Well the one thing we all have on our hands right now is time. So I picked up some art supplies and tried my hand at painting. My life right now is all about discovery, trying new things, and expressing myself. Well judging by the final product I created, it's safe to say that I am not the world's next Vincent van Gogh.  However, I will not let it get me down, I'll just keep trying new things until I find what makes me happy! Truth be told, the hour I spent "painting" was definitely a nice escape from the craziness we are all going through right now. However, I do want to take this time to explain the message my painting was trying to portray.

WEEKEND

During this time, the days have blended together. I was reminded that today was Friday only because I had to get my paycheck. Last weekend, I broke. I found it as an excuse to let my problem with alcohol run wild. I will not drink by myself again this weekend. I will not.

For the first time, I've recently discovered how amazing life can be. I drank to rid myself of my problems and only created more. I initially did not take this pandemic serious and viewed it as nothing more than a built in excuse for people to avoid me. Lives have been lost, countless others are ill. This situation is bigger than me and I understand it now. I wish everybody the best! 

If you are reading this and have some time to kill during this quarantine, please read my last post and let me know what you think. 

I am getting better but can only take it one day at a time.

FREEDOM

Today at the end of my therapy session, my therapist reached into a box and pulled out a random word. The word I received was “FREEDOM”. No more was said, other than she asked me to think about what it meant to me. During this quarantine, time is one thing I do have on my side. Instead of viewing it as a negative like I always tend to do, I want to find the positive in something for once. I haven’t truly sat down to write since my college days so please ignore any discrepancies you may find in my current outdated writing style. I do however, want to use this time to express everything that has been racing through my mind for the past few days, weeks, months, hell let’s be honest, years.

INTRO

Hey world! I've never blogged before but during this pandemic we are in right now, I figured I'd have some extra time on my hands so it might be a good time to start.

I have already typed something I want to share, so feel free to follow, comment, whatever it is the bloggers do while I'll go on this journey to discover the meaning of happiness for me.