DIET

Not to toot my own horn but "Toot! Toot! Motherfuckers!!"  I'm kind of killing this new lifestyle.  My mind has never been clearer.  Through a combination of therapy, blogging, and just tired of being sad as fuck all the time, my mind has never been clearer.  In a world right now full of confusion, I am kind of thriving and devoting any extra time I have into something positive.  I've found hobbies including cycling and drawing.  I'm not the fastest on my bike and i'm not the best artist either, but goddamnit do i enjoy both.  My art is real, its raw, and it speaks to me so hopefully it speaks to you as well.  Again, I'm taking this time to better myself in all ways possible.  What's next for me on this journey? A diet.  I have more than a few pounds I can afford to lose, and again before I did not care about what I put into my body.  When everything else had brought me down, I found food to be a comfort.  I ate junk because of the temporary satisfaction it gave me.  For those 15 minutes, I stuffed my face with chicken wings, cheese fries, and whatever other garbage I could get my stubby little fingers around and shove down my gullet, just to not think about the piece of shit I was.  Well as I said in an earlier post, you are what you eat, so I ate nothing but garbage so I felt like garbage.  I was garbage, but I don't have to be, and for the first time in a long time, I no longer feel like I am trash.  I have something to offer not only this world. but something to offer myself as well.

Let's look to see where I was at a few weeks ago...

1. I was depressed as fuck.

2. I was drunk as fuck.

3. I was bored as fuck.

4. I was smokey as fuck.

5. I was lazy as fuck.

6. I was fat as fuck.

Now, let's look to see where I am now...

1. I'm happy as fuck.

2. I'm sober as fuck.

3. I'm INVESTED as fuck.

4. I'm smoke free as fuck.

5. I'm vivacious as fuck.

6. I'm fat as fuck.

From the first list of I wasses, to the list of I ams, I have made tremendous progress.  There's only one thing that still remains on both lists, so it's time to change that.  Today, I start my diet.  Again, each person is different, but I have found that I can say things I want to do a million times.  I've tried to quit smoking countless times before, but for me, there's something about exposing my desires to the entire internet that holds me accountable.  The overwhelming feedback I have gotten online pushes me even harder to make sure I stick with it this time as not only am I quitting for myself, but I am also quitting for you.  In my effort to continue my new found enjoyment of life, it's time I also begin to eat healthier as well and drop a few pounds.  A few years ago, i successfully dropped 30 pounds through diet and exercise but did not continue my effort and gained it all back and then some fairly quickly.  Therefore I already know I can do it, but again this time is different.  I am starting from a new place of inner peace so throughout my desire to better myself in all aspects, so I know this will be another difficult process but I hope for the best.  A few months ago, I never even used the word hope and now look at me all hopeful and shit.  I'm proud of myself.  

I blog about my diet as I mentioned prior because it holds me accountable.  I am open for tips from you as well, and I hope my efforts can inspire even one person to do the same.  I know I will never be skinny per se, but I don't have to live my entire life being fat as fuck either.  I start this journey tipping the scales right at 300 pounds.  Like i said, i definitely got some poundage that can be dropped.  I will do the same thing that I did last time because it worked but with a few twists.  For example, last time I tended to skip dinner so I could save calories for beer that night.  I also smoked last time, so I wasn't always looking for an oral fixation like I am now.  I'm not doing either of those right now so this will definitely be interesting.  

Here's my daily plan, again if you have any suggestions please feel free to send me a message.  I also plan to ride my bike every day (even when its raining! I got to stop being a bitch! I mean I don't even have hair that can get wet so why does it bother me?)

SUNDAY- CHEAT DAY (eat whatever the hell I want)

MONDAY- THURSDAY

Breakfast: Smoothie (spinach, kale, almond milk, frozen fruit)

Lunch: Pill, Quest Nutrition Protein Bar (Meal Replacement)

Dinner: Pill, 8 oz. of grilled chicken, 1 C of steamed broccoli

Evening Snack (if needed): 1 serving of cauliflower pretzels, boom chicka pop popcorn, or fruit

FRIDAY

Dinner: can substitute chicken for shrimp, fish, pork, or lean beef

can substitute broccoli for any other vegetable

SATURDAY- HEALTHY CHEAT DAY (I can eat whatever I want with a health conscious and depending on daily activity.  For example, if I plan on putting a long day in on the bike, I could carb up before hand and maybe even reward myself with some lean beef jerky during the ride.  If I plan on having a lazy day just watching Netflix,  I could try a new healthy recipe.)

I know reading this, it definitely doesn't sound too exciting but believe it or not, broccoli is actually my favorite vegetable and one of the few I even eat! And we all know, chicken is delicious! I got this!! 

Hopefully, I don't lose my sense of humor like skinny Jonah Hill did, but I think it will be for the best.  Any suggestions, thoughts, tips, etc. you would like to share please feel free to do so.  I will check back in next week with an update on my diet.  Until then, what else would anybody like to see me write about? This blog is just as much yours as it is mine!

Sidenote: I want to say thank you to everybody that has placed an order on the HIAM STORE.  I already reached my first goal for my first week and even got sent a free product for myself.  If you did order a product, please let me know when it arrives and as always any and all feedback is greatly appreciated.